So yesterday was a good day. I woke up early and accomplished a lot of things before I left the house for work. My day at work was good too. I got some tasks done and attended my first SPINNING class. It was awesome. Diane, the instructor, kicked my butt. However, today is another story.
I woke up later than I should have and didn't want to get up at all. I didn't get the dishwasher unloaded and reloaded. I didn't make the bed or staighten up the house. It makes the day a lot better if you get something done at home before leaving. Now I'm at work, its rainy and I just don't feel like doing much. It would be a great day to be at home with the kids...but then again, what day wouldn't be good for that?
I'm frustrated that I can't keep up the momentum to keep all my days starting on the right foot. I just get worn out and don't feel like doing much. If I'd just suck it up and get things done I'd feel a lot better.
I've always seen my self as more of the professional type, until now! I'm now more of the MOM type. I'd be more than perfectly happy staying home with my kids, keeping the laundry done and house clean and getting supper on the table ready for Craig's arrival (I don't really cook though). On the one hand it would be nice to make a lot of money and be able to have all the things we want and to do all the things we want, but on the other, its just nice to relax and enjoy time at home with the kids: to love them, feed them, wash them, play with them and teach them. I want to drive them here there and everywhere for their different activities. I want to be the mom that drops them off at school in a sweatshirt and ballcap.
Oh well...maybe some day!
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